Fruit of Boredom

I got bored. And my friend took this hilarious picture of me so...I edited it.

Under Your Sunny Sky

I'm dreaming of palm trees swaying
Children in parks playing
I'm dreaming of seagle cries
And sunsets by the sea side
But soon I'll be waking
Up by the sea

California, I'm coming home
Soon I won't be so alone
Your salty breath will be my air
This time I'm not going anywhere


I'm waiting for your movie theaters
Tan guys in wife beaters
I'm waiting for the sound of flip flops
Smacking against the warm side walks
But soon I'll have
All that and more

California, I'm coming home
Soon I won't be so alone
Your salty breath will be my air
This time I'm not going anywhere


Now I'm laying
Under your sunny sky
And finally content
I let out a sigh

It Slipped Through My Fingers

What is love?
A bundle of roses, with one that will never die
A sweetly singing guitar
A warm blanket and two beating hearts
Hands constantly clasped
A special feeling during the summer
Smiles that never cease to crack
A beautiful written pose?
No.
It is calm and enduring
Kind and understanding
Protecting and hopeful.

Love is what never fails
What we all long for
Dream for in our nights of restless sleep
Many times we think we have it
Before it turns into sand
And quickly slips through our fingers…

Stressing

So it's another one of those nights....I'm up late doing hw. And my mind is incredibly frustrated. I should be less frustrated right now too...this is for AP Art. Ugh. I can't get my head around this project. I'm doing a design project right now, to add a bit of variety into my project, but it has to connect with my photography projects. It's really irritating. Part of me just wants to curl up in a ball and cry. Bleh. I'm so tired. I think I have something...but it feels so empty. And...UGH. IT DOESN'T WORK. Ok. Whatever. Bleh.

I give up. I'm going to bed.

Procrastination

So...I'm supposed to be doing JSem hw right now. I can't focus for the life of me though. I've read 4 pages in the past hour. Ugh. At least this isn't due tomorrow. So I'm going to write this blog, in the hopes that I can get my mind in gear.

So! Updates. Hmm...

I just downloaded a bunch of nevershoutnever! songs. Hehe. They're so beautiful <3 Freakin love his music.

I'm sipping on a Kiwi Strawberry Hasen's soda right now. I'm starting to think that the reason I feel so...pudgy right now is all the soda I'm drinking. I'm gonna start limiting myself to one soda a week. I think that'll have to be a mountain dew in Shibz or something XD Ahhh! I need to cut back on the junk food too...no more chocolate chip cookies and ice cream at school! That should help me out some :)

I have to make dinner on Wednesday...I wanna make something with pasta, cause I love pasta. I'm thinking about ratitoui. (I know I didn't spell that right) I made it last year and it was yummy. I might look around and see if I can find something else veggie friendly though. I love torturing my brother with vegetarian meals. Hehehe.

Lalala.

I really want to go play my guitar right now...but my mom's in bed already. Crazy woman haha. She would be pissed at me and then I'd be sad. :( No being sad. Being sad sucks. Being HAPPY!! is better. Much much better.

So I'm gonna start teaching this little blonde 2nd grade named Riley how to play guitar from tomorrow. She's so cute. And super fun. Should be a good time. And MONEY!! It will be switching to dollars as soon as I can. The exchange rate is ridiculously amazing right now for me haha. Money money money...

So at this moment...I really want a tutu skirt. Actually I've been wanting one for years. They're so dang AWESOME. I'm totally getting one. Hehe. Or would...someone like to offer to buy me one? I like presents. After I suffer through accepting them. Then I'm happy. Haha. Weird. I know I know. But what's new?

Omg. Freakin 4 months till I graudate from high school. That's INSANE. I'm starting to get really anxiuos. I'm gonna have to make myself incredibly busy within the next few months or I'll lose my miiiiind!!!

Anyway. My shoulders are sore. And I have a lot of hw...OMG!! I really love this song. SkyHighStandard by Nevershoutnever! I just get it. Hehe. I like I like I like!!! I wish I could write songs...hm. Really gotta get on that.

So this is kinda bad. But funny at the same time. I think. Friday night at Bridge (youth service) Chris (my youth pastor) was talking about Jona, and the whole time all I could see was Veggie tales...and "Jona was a prophet (oh oh!) but he never really got it (sad but true!)...." (song) running through my head. I quietly giggled to myself through the whole sermon. REALLY bad. Anyway. I really want to go to bed. I need to get through at least half of this reading though...

these lyrics to SkyHighStandard make too much sense to me

this is me trying to live my life

by your standards

your god awful standards

they wear me down

Ok I'm out of things to say. Back to trying to read. Sigh. Goodnight everyone. Jesus loves you!

Pierced

I suck at this blog thing. Haha. Anyway! Some news for everyone. Second semester, AKA my last semester of high school!!! starts tomorrow. HOORAY!! More to come on that.

In other news. Dylan and I went to get our ears pierced today, and Katya came along for emotional support haha. I was kind of freaking out about it. Dylan payed for me for my bday (thanks bud!) It was pretty funny. I was so scared, I thought I was gonna cry. I actually did start tearing up right before, but then when they actually did it I was fine. My ears just burned for a bit afterwards. Funny thing is, Dylan was all cool about it. He gets his done. We walk out and he starts stumbling around "You guys I need water I'm gonna pass out." Haha. So we go sit down outside and get him a bottle of water, and he was PALE. I felt bad for him, but it was hilarious at the same time...

Anyway. Funny day. Finally got some new headphones, and a soft case for my guitar. Wee! Time to go take a bath and do my JSem reading. QUIZ TOMORROW. YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suprise!

So today was a good day. I woke up, took care of the dogs, and then went to Shibuya to meet up with the Florenzie girls for lunch. We went to TGI Friday's and it was DELISH. Then we went to HMV so I could buy nevershoutnever!'s CD, just released in Japan next month. I ended up walking out of the store not only with nevershoutnever! but also A Skylit Drive and the new Haste the Day haha. It was worth it though. I was pretty happy. Then the plan was to go to my house and watch all the new movies we got.

Little did I know....

...there was a suprise birthday party waiting for me at home! Haha. It was great I had NO idea. A bunch of my friends from church was there, and then one of my band boys Ty came as well. It was cool. I got some sweet presents :) And my friends are just funny haha. We played a bunch of guitar hero and then watched Legally Blonde.

Everyone just went home. So I'm going to bed. I'm tired, long day. But it was awesome :)

The Big One Eight

Well it looks as though we are in the first day of 2009. Happy Birthday to me! Haha. It's been quite the interesting birthday. I woke up feeling a little nasty....ended up on the couch with a fever, a little over 100 degrees, for those in Japan, 38.1. Pretty nasty huh? Anyway I'm feeling a bit better. I still feel like I'm in a sauna, but not so much since my fever went down. So I'm on the computer a bit before my birthday keylime pie and then off to bed with me!

I don't really know what the whole point of this post was....besides to say that I'm 18, and a legal adult in the U.S. now I guess haha. Anyway. I'm done. I lack words.

Happy New Year everyone!